October 19, 2005
Memory
Tonight is the night my little girl died. Soon we'll be on the hour, and then it will have been six years, yet sometimes it feels like it has only just happened. If I concentrate I can still see her, and smell her, and hear her voice. But I can't hold her. How I wish that I could hold her again.
I don't know why I'm writing this, for it seems that there aren't any words or tears left. I guess I worry that somehow she'll think I've forgotten her.
I remember you every day, Caroline. We all do, and we miss you so.
Posted by Woodlief on October 19, 2005 at 05:42 PM
Tony,
Tonight is the night my big brother died--50 years ago. He was four years old, and I was nearly two. He was buried a few days later, on my parents fifth anniversary.
You will never forget Caroline, Tony. I don't believe it's possible. And I do believe that she knows how much you love and miss her.
I don't remember my brother at all, but I think of him--and miss him--every single day. In so many ways, he changed my life.
Praying for you all tonight...
Posted by: Katy Raymond at October 19, 2005 9:09 PM
Blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted...
Your Brother in Christ,
Rob
Posted by: Rob at October 19, 2005 10:11 PM
I will pray for you again this year. I can't imagine the depths of what you've suffered, but I can tell you that your story of a father's love has touched so many people.
Posted by: Michael at October 20, 2005 10:33 AM
My heart aches for you, and my tears cry to God on your behalf.
Psa 73:23-24 Nevertheless I am continually with You; You have taken hold of my right hand.
With Your counsel You will guide me, And afterward receive me to glory.
Posted by: onelamb at October 20, 2005 12:32 PM
I am praying for you as I read. May you experience the grace of God.
Posted by: Teem at October 20, 2005 2:00 PM
Worry not Tony, she will never be forgotten. Even when we're gone, the words you put here will always be archived, somewhere, so her memory (and your own) will live on.
I get teary just reading this post. With two little girls, it hits pretty close :(
Posted by: Evan Erwin at October 20, 2005 2:03 PM
It's just over 6 years since I held my son, too. We all will never forget our precious children, but I do know what you mean.
Posted by: Joanna at October 20, 2005 3:18 PM
Mourn with those who mourn.
You are not alone, Tony.
Posted by: Danielle at October 23, 2005 5:43 PM
In the Desert of the Real, I sit, tears dripping into the sand.
I mmmourn too.
Posted by: MMM at October 25, 2005 10:00 AM
I am sorry Tony for your loss, and glad for your memories that live on.
Posted by: stephanie at October 26, 2005 8:50 AM
